Shawn Pyfrom writes about addiction after Philip Seymour Hoffman death
In the wake of Philip Seymour Hoffman's untimely death, former "Desperate Housewives" star Shawn Pyfrom is speaking out about his own struggles with drugs and alcohol.
Pyfrom, who portrayed Andrew Van De Kamp, Bree Van De Kamp's troubled gay son, on the hit ABC series "Desperate Housewives," wrote an open letter on his personal Tumblr account about his struggle with addiction. The full post can be read here.
"When news reaches us of a public figure, like Mr. Hoffman, passing away from such a terrible affliction; we tend to get the feeling of great loss," Pyfrom writes. "It is a great loss. I feel grief when I hear of such a talented human being leaving this earth ... but every life is important."
"There are just some that hold the public forum. The loss of their life is no more, or no less, of a loss than anyone else's. And anytime a person uses drugs, they are taking the chance that their life will be taken from them."
Pyfrom, who reveals in the post that he is five months sober, goes on to talk about his own demons with alcohol and drugs. The actor says that despite feeling he had control over his usage, he constantly worried the people that cared about him the most.
"For several years, I lived for drugs," he said. "I lived for other things as well. But drugs dictated the other things I lived for. I thought more about using, than I thought about any other 'pleasures.' I put myself in places I never would have ended up, otherwise, for the sake of getting high."
"There are countless nights of blacking out, and making poor decisions as a result of my overusing. I wasted the time of valuable people, who worked so hard to pull my career to a higher place, by allowing my addictions to tug me out of their grip."
Pyfrom concluded his post by saying while he never wanted to become a "preacher of sobriety," he hopes that his candor will be able to save another person's life.
"I am an addict," he says. "And I've never been more proud, saying it. Because when I think about where I've been, and where I am now ... I am proud of the man who has addressed and admitted to himself, what was once a clouded denial. Self-pride and love are two things I've never had for myself, until recently."
"I hold them closely, now, by my own humbled awareness. And I wouldn't trade that in for any pill, line, or drink - on any day. I could go on, but I'll leave it here, for now ..."