Kelly Rowland reveals jealousy of Beyonce, boyfriend abuse in new song
Kelly Rowland gets candid in her new single "Dirty Laundry," which reveals the singer's jealousy of her former Destiny's Child group member Beyonce. Rowland also reveals that she once dated an abusive boyfriend.
The song, which can be heard here (Warning: Song contains expletives) is featured on Rowland's upcoming fourth solo studio album "Talk A Good Game," due out on June 18.
"Dirty Laundry" premiered on Wednesday, May 15, and in it, Rowland refers to a "sister" on stage who was "killing it," which is slang for when someone is doing something exceptionally well.
"When my sister was on stage / killing it like a [expletive], I was enraged / feeling it like a [expletive]," Rowland sings. She later croons, "Went our separate ways / but I was happy that she was killing it / bitter sweet / she was up and I was down / No lie, I feel good for her / but what do I do now?"
The 32-year-old singer makes a specific reference to the time after Destiny's Child released their hit single "Survivor" in 2001 and mentions that this was also around the time she was involved in the abusive relationship.
"Forget the records / off the record / I was going through some [expletive] / post-'Survivor,' she on fire / who wanna hear my [expletive]," Rowland sings. "Meanwhile, this [expletive] puttin' his hands on me / swear y'all don't know the half of this industry."
Toward the end of the song, Rowland reveals that the boyfriend manipulated her into believing that he was the only one who really loved her.
"He hitting the window like it was me / until it shattered / he pulled me out and said, 'Don't nobody love you but me / not your mama / not your daddy / and especially not B,'" Rowland sings. "He turned me / against my sister / I missed you."
Rowland, who collaborated on the track with The-Dream, spoke about the emotional single to Billboard.com on Wednesday and said, "It was very emotional. It took me days to record."
"I had to get past being so upset and actually sing the song, not sob through it. I always hope that my music can inspire someone, the same way other artists inspire me," she added. "Dream said, 'I want to write you a record so that people will know exactly who you are, underneath it all.'"
Rowland will go on a summer tour, called Lights Out, with The-Dream starting on May 24 in Kansas City.
The singer reunited with Beyonce and fellow Destiny's Child member Michelle Williams during Beyonce's performance at the halftime show at the Super Bowl XLVII in February.